Got my first taste of LA drama this week. I figured it would happen sooner or later, but I didn’t figure on it happening this soon.
What I’ve learned:
People that you think are your friends are not always your friends.
Never say anything to anyone ever. If you hear some shit. Keep it to yourself.
Keep your mouth shut. You learn more by listening.
Keep your eyes open.
Things are not as they seem.
Stay on your grind.
This is all about you. Fuck the rest.
This goes for you and everyone you know.
Things are the same as they were in Dallas…but times 10.
You think it’s a game in Dallas. It’s even more so here in LA.
You have to be friends with everyone, but you’ll learn that it’s harder than you ever imagined. It takes a resolve that is almost inhuman. But I’m up to the task.
I’ve made many friends here. I’m good at the networking aspect of comedy.
I’m good at the performance aspect of comedy. Balancing the two is proving harder than I had expected, but I will prevail.
It’s time to take it to the next level. I’m not leaving and I have no other option other than to succeed.
This week I did a show at The Comedy Store. A real show. Not an open mic. I did my best and I think I did well. I didn’t book that show myself. I had help. And I’m so appreciative of that help.
I’ve met another writer that has an amazing script idea that I’m super excited about. We’re going to start working on it next week.
I’ve never felt more alone since I’ve been here than I do this week. But that’s the nature of this business. I’ve got to buckle down and rely on myself.
I can finally relate to what those that have come before me have said. I get it now.
You have to have your crew. You have to stick together. You have to champion each other.
I’ve been working to get in where I fit in. After this week, I”ve definitely learned more about this game out here. It’s real. You think you know, but you have no idea.
It s getting harder to stay motivated. Sometimes I think I made a mistake coming out here. It’s hard. As good as you think you are, it will beat you down. Sometimes I doubt myself. It’s easy to do when you’re dealing with bullshit. I’m going to strip all of the bullshit away this weekend. I’m done. I’m going to find my own place. I’m going to start working to have a stable income here and build a life here. I don’t ever want to leave. It’s time to man up and get my shit straight.